Fucking Great Day

Yesterday (15 Oct 2009)
Yesterday during the midnight time i have received a lot of wishes from my secondary school friends, i was very happy and during morning time another group sending birthday wishes to me..it was a great day..OKKAYY..time to go to ECS class and i was waiting all my friends to say happy birthday but NO !! All like normal normal only and whatever..i also acted like normal la..but when the time pass to MATHS...all of a sudden they all sang Happy Birthday Song to me ..i was so surprised..Thanks to all my friends that have given me this surprise !! HAHAHA..During night time..Hazel asking me whether wanna spent them eat that night since they all are free then i of course is no problem !!! And Davis was there too..(LIKE)HAHA..at first Davis came and pick me up to Cyndy house to pick up some nice dress..making up and etc..oh yeah..i also wearing a fucking highest heel shoes like 5 inches to the party and i cant even balanced myself when walking..HAHA..well they all have planned all for me..when i reach my birthday party place..WOW..they all ..the moment i saw Hazel taking out the cake..the cake la made me the most surprise and feel touch but cannot cry because of the mascara..HAHA..Anyway..the cake was so nice and the food they all have prepared was damn nice too..and the drinks of course CASBURD !!! OMG..i thought drinking that would not drunk for me but ...looks like when reach second Go i have a bit drunk..because when i started walking to toilet i was unbalanced !! HAHAA..i don know how many Go i have gone through but when leave i cant balance myself dy..Before going home..Davis brought us to the Lutong Beach and me and fred was up to the car and felt the wind blow..it was so nice and we shouted ..when back home..i was not feeling well dy..i feel like wanna vomit..and i vomited !! Awww..that was growse ..hahaha...when the time pass to 4.32am which is the next day ..i realise that my phone was not by myside..i was paniced and found that it was with Hazel cause i dropped it in her car..HAHA

Today (16 Oct 2009)
Today morning wake up still feel like a bit dizzy..HAHA..then about nine something i went for breaksfast with Davis and Hazel they all ..we went to Pulau Melayu..we have Mee Jawa..the food was nice but i dont have any appetite after drunk..haiz..nvm..next time..but don know still got next time or not cause Davis gonna leave US !!! Aww...gonna miss him very very much..but at least this year birthday was meaningfull and memoriable day i never have before..thanks to all my sayang that have planned all this..i love you guys so much...

9 Oct 2009 , 8.09am

Yesterday just like a bad dream for me..i have did so much wrong things. His friends called him asked him to buy something but i really don want him to go cause i knew that if he go out with that friends he might not coming back so i got angry..he asked me to pass him his phone and i thought he will cancel it but nope..he asked his friends to bring him to change money and he just go off like that..dint say that will come back tonight but before he cancel it he promised me that he will come back thou..i was pissed off that he just left me like that..i was supposed to help him to open the gate but i saw there was someone had open the gate and he run..i dint know that he will run out there..i waited him til night even dinner i also no took..i thought he was coming back..but when i saw his mesg he said i was mean that i hurt his leg..next i asked his friends, Ashraf said he has get a badly hurt in his leg..when he saying that i was felt like so guilty..wanted to say sorry to him but i knew everything had turn up late ..even i say how many thousand sorry i knew he won forgive me that easy..all the way was my fault..if i open the gate for him it won turn out like this..now i hurt his leg and ...and...Aww...if davis know this i aslo kena marah..i really feel that i am so mean..

Fred, i m very sorry but i know saying sorry to you is just like nothing..cause you won forgive me..i know..all was my fault..i know what will you do if getting serious..i have prepared..but please don get much hurt of yourself..i am totally sorry..but still i love you..

2 Oct 2009

Fate to Love You - Let go of Love

Our Love we had
has gone and wont return
until now i m still silently waiting ...

I think it will be best for us both to return back to our starting point
I hope that you will remember this day forever
No matters what come in your way in the future
Fates in your hand

From the time you started to seek your desired freedom
You released our tightly gripped hands
Taking my love and sky
I felt helpless
I thought i would understand
Our love...our love...

From the time i advanced towards the end of time by myself
Memories brushed past me
Taking away your love and smile
I lack the strength to bear the final heartaches
Our love...our love...

Let go of Love
let go of your hands
if your heart is already gone
let go of love
stop waiting
your tenderness does not exist
let go of love
open your heart
this time i will definitely leave our memories and start over again
just hurt me thoroughly
and then come to my senses thoroughly

Other people says
the first time women got cheated is naive
second time is innocent
third time is foolish

I only know
the first time is an accident
second time is necessary
the third time is fated
FATED..FATEd..FATed..FAted..Fated..